I don't even know where to start. These last two months have been an
enormous test on my faith and my heart. Through our loss of Gabrielle I
could not have made it through with out turning to and relying completely on God. I don't know how people
who do not have faith in God go through extremely difficult trials and make it out on the other
end okay, because I know I sure could not have. Some days are definitely
better then others but through God's grace I definitely have more good
days than not and am thankful for that. Neal and I have learned to lean on God like never before, as a result we, as a couple, have grown much closer as well. I know that through all these trials God has a purpose, I do not know what they are and may never know, but I know he has plans for us.
'For I know the plans I have for you,declares the Lord, plans for wholeness and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me. When you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and I will restore your fortunes and gather you from all nations and all the places where I have driven you, declares the Lord, and I will bring you back to the place from which I sent you into exile.'
Jeremiah 29: 11-14
